by Anthony Venn-Brown. Winner of the Sydney (Australia) Gay & Lesbian Business Association’s ‘Gay Book of the Year’ 2004.
Anthony holds nothing back as he reveals the torment and guilt experienced as a conservative Christian who couldn’t conform to the church’s edicts. Over 22 years he endured trips to the psychiatrist, weeks of exorcisms, 40-day fasts, months in a Christian ex-gay program and daily struggles with his ‘problem’, desperately attempting to change.
Like many homosexual men of his time, he married, believing it would extinguish the desires he felt. This only led him further into a life of self-deceit and hypocrisy. A popular preacher in the mega churches of Australia and other parts of the world, he survived by compartmentalising his sin. On centre stage, he was a successful, passionate evangelist who preached a message of hope and deliverance to thousands weekly. Behind the scenes however, were many dark secrets waiting to make an appearance. Feeling torn and fragmented, he knew something would eventually give. Jason was the catalyst and a public humiliation the result.
Abandoned by the church, which considered homosexuality an abomination, he lost everything he’d worked for and everyone he cared about. The devastation this brought to Anthony’s life took him on a lonely journey that made him who he is today. You’ll feel the sense of loss and be moved by his courage as he has to make the toughest decision of his life, being true to himself or live a lie.
This is not just a coming out story. Whether you are gay or straight, a Christian or a non-believer, you’ll find relevance in Anthony’s journey. It’s a story about living your truth – embracing who you are and living the life you were meant to live.